Depressed, but trying to be happy.

Well... I didn't stay in budget this month. :(

Means that's LESS month towards my move. I think I figured out some of why I've had such trouble. I get 200 a month. 60 goes towards bills. That leaves me with 140. 20 of that goes towards other things. (that 40 dollar jacket, the 7 dollar light bulb, toothpaste, shampoo, gas). That leaves me 120 for food. That's just 4 dollars a day. I don't know what I can eat for just 4 dollars a day! I could give up meat and veggies and my chocolate milk. I guess that would save me money. But that wouldn't be living, that'd just be existing. I don't think I could handle that. I already am going to be going a whole month before I get a single full day off from work+school. ICK!

I think the only solution is to ask my mom for more money and/or see if she'll let me keep more of the money that I earn. I think I might also not let her know how much I"m getting back from my trips when they pay me for miles. I did get a check for 176 dollars today. I'll put it in on Thursday. My paycheck I won't get until several days into next month. Maybe by the 6th if I'm lucky.

I'm trying to think of more happy things to write here. I replaced the lightbulb in my room all by myself. And I fixed it on the SAME day that it went out! A first for me! The lightbulb was a special one though, cost me 7 dollars to buy. ICK! I'm losing the happiness. Oh! I know! Tomorrow I can sleep in until /10/! My first class has been cancelled and I had an hour break after that, so I don't have class starting until 11! Weee! Another happy thing is that I got my Poverty exam back and I scored a 96%. One of the highest in the class.

I'll talk to my mom tonight and point out my per day food budget and see what she thinks. I'll also try to write something up in Swedish tonight. Maybe I'll show that to Peter, he'd like to see my Swedish attempts I think.